Good Days Ahead

Whoever of you loves life and desires to see many good days, keep your tongue from evil and your lips from speaking lies. Psalm 34:12-13 (NIV)

The day had arrived. My heart pounded louder and louder as the time drew near. I wanted to make a good first impression, but I reminded myself that my life had been consumed with making good impressions. That’s why I’d scheduled the counseling appointment in the first place. I needed to be honest – and I needed to take the first step with my counselor. 

It’s hard for me to consider being transparent. I fear rejection. I fear disappointing someone. Yet the more I am transparent with people, the more I experience freedom. Slowly, my desire to be free surpasses the nerves. After all, my counselor is not as interested in my first impression as much as I am. So I speak – cautiously but freely. Honestly.

An hour and a half later, I feel relief. This is what it feels like to be me! This is what the Psalmist refers to when he encourages me to keep my lips from speaking lies. I might not speak lies outright, but neither am I true to myself. I want to love life. I want to see many good days. Be who He made me to be – regardless of impressing others. With this first step, light pierces through my darkness, and I stand confidently on the path He’s set before me. I’m not expecting transparency to be easy. But by the grace of God I am who I am (1 Corinthians 15:10, NIV). I’m starting to love life, and I see many good days ahead.

Father, help me to be who You have made me to be. Help me to love myself and the life You’ve laid out for me. In Jesus’ name, Amen.