How Should I Love You, Lord?

He has shown you, O man, what is good. And what does the Lord require of you but to do justly, to love mercy, and to walk humbly with your God. Micah 6:8 (NKJV)

There are changes looming at the executive level; my job is at risk. There is speculation among the staff about what comes next. We gossip behind closed doors. We giggle and plot and plan, and make disparaging comments. We discuss scenarios that seem plausible in our closets, but become ludicrous in reality’s spotlight.

How should I love you, Lord?

There is tension in my home. I exude tension. I find fault with my family, the garden, the laundry, the dishes. I find fault with me.

Yet I know that you made me in your image, that you expect me to walk in your way at all times regardless of the circumstances. I want to be a better witness. I want you to shine through me.

I know that fiery darts are pointed at me, that my fight is not against flesh and blood. I know, and yet I hesitate to pray, choosing instead to read a book or watch television or play a computer game.

How should I love you, Lord?
    Be patient with my family; You are still molding them. 
    Be patient with myself; I, too, am a work in progress. 
    Be obedient. Cease gossip. Pray without ceasing. 
    Be generous in thoughts. Speak kindly. Speak truth with love.  
    Guard my thoughts. Put on the whole armor of God. 
    Stay focused. Stand firm. 
    This is how I will love You.