Am I Clean Inside?

But the LORD said unto Samuel, Look not on his countenance, or on the height of his stature; because I have refused him: for [the LORD seeth] not as man seeth; for man looketh on the outward appearance, but the LORD looketh on the heart. 1 Samuel 16:7 (KJV)

The other day, I went to the dentist as my teeth had been giving me a bit of trouble for about two weeks. I assumed the dentist would say that I was lacking calcium or something of the sort and just give a few pills that I could swallow and then miraculously my teeth queasiness would heal. But oh how wrong I was. I prided myself in taking good care of my teeth; I believed I brushed them adequately in order to keep them from decaying. The dentist took a good look inside and his next words surprised me a great deal… He said something like, "It seems like you’ve been cleaning just the outer side of your teeth and your inside is dirty. Just a show for the world huh?" he laughed. I cringed, feeling embarrassed.  

A few days later, the incident got me thinking. How many times have I just put on a show of being kind, loving and generous to the outer world? How many times have I smiled and acted a ‘Christian’ and not really felt God’s love and compassion flow from within me? While I myself had been drifting farther and farther away from God, I’ve put on a mask to the outside world to make them believe that I was a good, devoted Christian. I asked myself, “Who are you fooling?” and the answer made me search deep within myself. For the next few days, I focused on spending more quiet time with God and building my relationship with him. I tried harder to follow his commandments lovingly delivered to us through his life giving Word and the peace and true love that followed are experiences that I cannot pen down in writing. God gives us freely of his love and peace; it’s we who drift away and not abide in the richness of the experience. My dryness, I realised, could be filled with his amazing fullness, if only I chose to seek after Him, and that I did.  

Blessed Father, thank you for caring enough to tell us in your Word how we are to live and thank you for responding to our cries of desperation. Thank you for the love you pour into our hearts. Make us your arms, feet and heart that will go into the world and love as You have called us to love. In Jesus’ precious name we pray, Amen.